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Makin gak tega aja sama pacar gue. Dia muak sama gue. Ngerasa gak dihargain sama gue. Jadi dia gak betah disini.
Untung nanti gue pindah. Jadi...ya se-enggaknya dia bisa bernafas lega. Soalnya udah gak ada sampah lagi dihidupnya dia.
Bayangin aja kalo hidup lo selalu diganggu sama orang aneh yg selalu kepo sama urusan lo? Ya itu gue. Gue selalu mau tau apa yg dilakuin pacar gue dan sama siapa dan kemana dan kapan dan blablabla
Sampah kan? Itu bukan perhatian. Tapi itu lebay.
Makanya, gue sebagai pacar yg baik:D mau ngasih satu kebahagian ya walaupun kecil, tapi paling tidak bisa bikin pacar gue ngerasa bebas. Gak di kepoin lagi sama gue. Gituuu ehehe

Btw. Kenapa skrg kepala gue makin sering sakit ya? Setiap gue marah, selalu kepala gue sakit banget
Gue gak boleh ketergantungan sama obat. Obat itu cuma bikin hilang sesaat tp nanti muncul lagi
Terus gue harus gimana? Gak betah juga bentar bentar sakit bentar bentar sakit. Cape. Pengen hidup nyaman tenang gitu. Tapi belom bisa.
Semoga nanti, gue bisa ngerubah hidup gue. Hidup pacar gue juga. Gak sabar!:)

fine

Malem2 gini. Nangis sambil ngetik post lewat hape.
Okeee bukannya gue lemah atau apapun.
Tapi gue cukup banget sama semua ini.
Semua kebegoan gue
Semua kesampahan gue
Semua ketololan gue
Semua keegoisan gue
Semua kebangsatan gue
Semua kebrengsekan gue
Semua. Semua. Semua.
Gue mungkin orang tertolol di dunia. Udah nyia2in kesempatan yg udh dikasih buat gue kesekian kali
Kesempatan yg gue kira bisa gue dapetin
Tapi ternyata semuanya...
Gak ada gunanya lagi
Kesalahan gue yg bikin dia pergi
Dia ngejauh
Dia ngehindar
Dia mulai ngelupain gue
Pembelaan diri gue udah gak ada harganya lagi
Kali ini gue udah ngelakuin kesalahan yg fatal bgt
Gue jalan sama anak temen nyokap gue. Walaupun gue gak jalan berdua, iya gue jalan sama nyokap dan temennya.
Tapi tetep aja ini bikin dia kecewa
Dia sakit hati sama sikap gue
Gue emang gak pernah bisa ngerti jalan fikiran dia
Apa yg gue lakuin selalu salah dimata dia
Dia yg sebenernya tulus sayang sama gue mulai ngejauh karna sikap gue sendiri yg egois, bangsat, brengsek. Gue nyia2in org yg Tuhan kasih buat nemenin hidup gue yg sebentar ini
Gue gak bersyukur atas apa yg Tuhan kasih buat gue. Gue emg cewe tertolol di dunia.
Mungkin udah gak ada kata maaf buat gue lagi yg bakal diterima sama dia
Iya. Gue udah terlalu sering nyakitin dia. Gak mungkin gue sakitin terus2an.
Mungkin kalo dia mau jujur, dia muak sama gue. Dan berharap gue cepet pergi dari kehidupan dia.
Karna sumpah, gue emg orang paling gak berguna diseluruh muka bumi.
Gue egois. Gak pernah mikirin perasaan dia. Dia yg selalu ngertiin gue, harus rela disakitin. Rela ngorbanin perasaannya untuk tetep bertahan pacaran sama gue. Walau sebenernya gue tau. Dihati kecil dia, udah gak ada sayang buat gue lagi.

what?

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who's win  now? haha

this is yellin' in ma head

Lagi berantem ya? Iya.
Salah lagi ya? Iya.
Lagi emosi gini denger Mad-nya Neyo bikin tenang
Berhubung gue nulis lewat hape, jadi liriknya aja yaa!




Mad by Neyo


Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

[Verse 1]

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no

[Verse 2]

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Bridge]

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no

its only for you:)

Buat kamu yg lagi marah. Semoga cepet reda ya emosinya:)

Siapa sih yg gak kesel dibohongin? Siapa sih yg gak kesel disakitin terus menerus?
Pasti kesel...pasti kecewa...
Mungkin ini yg lagi dirasain Akmal. Akmal udah terlalu sering gue bohongin. Gue sakitin
Tp dia tetep mau nerima gue apa adanya.
Dia masih jadi Akmal yg dulu
Yg suka marah-marah kalo gue ngeselin:p

Pernah gak kalian bayangin betapa kecewanya seseorang sama kita sampe orang itu pergi dari hidup kita?
Ini yg lg gue bayangin. Gue takut bgt Akmal pergi.
Pergi dan gak akan balik lagi
Gue ngerasa bego banget udah nyakitin dia berkali-kali.
Tp dia tetep diem. Tetep tenang
Gimana gue kalo jadi Akmal?
Gue pasti udah gak bisa nahan emosi lg.
Gue salah satu orang yg amat sangat beruntung bisa dijagain, disayang sama Akmal
Akmal baik
Perhatian
Setia
Apa adanya
Sempurna
mungkin banyak yg mau sama Akmal. Mungkin suatu hari nanti, kalo Akmal udah gak bisa nahan emosinya lagi, dia bakal pergi jauh, cari sosok yg lebih bisa ngertiin dia.
Makanya skrg gue berusaha bgt bikin Akmal seneng. Biar dia tau kalo gue tulus sayang sama dia:)